What the heck! High school has come and gone and apparently so has summer and in less than three days I move into my college dorm. It's crazy to think about how fast time has truly flown by! As I transition into this next chapter of my life I find myself in a state filled with thoughts constantly floating around in my brain. Some of these thoughts are happy, some sad, and a lot of them full of anticipation. Below I have confessed these thoughts, take it as you will.
(DISCLAIMER: These are in no particular order)
- Will I really be able to live with a stranger for the next 9 months?
- Am I going to be totally and completely overwhelmed with college?
- Is it possible to find solid christian community at a public school?
- Is my faith strong enough to withstand everything college will throw at me?
- Who will I still be friends with out of my high school friend group in college?
- I find the idea of #RingBySpring to be ridiculous.
- Will I meet my husband in college?
- Will I ever figure out what I really want to do?
- Am I listening to what God is telling me?
- Did I choose the right school?
- Am I being realistic when it comes to my life goals?
- Will I make friends in college?
- Am I too pushy when it comes to sharing what I think?
- I am really weirded out at the idea of not seeing my mom every day.
- How will my family dynamic change once I leave?
- I can't figure out if my excitement for certain things is passion or just excitement.
- What is my passion?
- How do I find it?
- Am I too independent to be in a relationship?
- I hate when people see my self confidence as unapproachable.
- Am I disciplined enough to stick to my daily readings?
- I really want to use my planner consistently.
- Will I be culture shocked going into college?
- Am I able to love people well even when they are different from me?
- I will miss my brother a lot more than I will ever admit.
- I am really afraid of committing to something and then finding out that I hate it.
- I know who I am, but I don't understand why people are still surprised at how comfortable I am in my own skin.
- I want to show people Christ through my life but I feel like I suck at that 99% of the time.
- I really want to have fun in college.
- I want Jesus to be my focus in every season of my life.
- Why do people find my purity ring weird?
- I'm really want to have a better diet in college.
- I am glad I know how to take good notes.
- I feel like I am overthinking everything.
- How do I stop?
While writing this list I realized two things 1) I have some really random thoughts, and 2) that I can satisfy a lot of these questions by leaving them at the feet of the Cross. How blessed am I to have a Savior that loves me enough to listen to me drone on and on about every single boring thought in my head. WOW. My God is awesome. I pray you know that too. If you would pray for me during this time of transition in my life and that I will seek God in all things first and foremost.
With a wandering head and steady heart,
Kaitlyn
